Just Me, Cindy...

Sunday, April 11, 2010

school orientation starts tmr.
current mood: out of place.

i'm looking forward for school to start. yes, tmr is the day. but somehow, there's some feeling in me that is inexplicable. it just cant be explain using words or any form of emotions. i actually feel frighten going to school alone. i know it have to be overcome but i just cant help feeling scared.

i remember taking school bus for my entire primary school life, and having someone to accompany to school for over 90% for my secondary school life. perhaps too dependant on junxiong of too many things that seems to be "little things" until relying on him becomes a habit. well, i guess this habit only got worsen during last year, where ima alone in a new environment retaking my Os.

i dread of entering a totally new environment. i know the reason why i didnt face the same emotions last year was because junxiong's friends were especially kind to me. we became friends in the very short time because they already knew i was his girlfriend. if it wasn't this fact, i'm pretty sure we won't hit off so fast.

not only issues socially. i'm also worried on academic matters. i aimed for 3.5 for my GPA. but parents think it wasn't enough. they kept putting stress on me caused they felt that i'm already 1year lagging behind. i must say that design is my forte. and i pin high hopes on my poly results. i badly wanted to score well and hopefully, enter a local university after 3years. but it seems that my parents are far more anxious than me. how could i get a 3.8 GPA? all i can do is to learn autocad before school starts but this wouldn't be everything. there are still so many modules. i feel stress, really do.

on relationship, i really want to thank junxiong for the constant care and assurance. entering different poly means we'll have lesser time for each other and i kept feeling that our 2year+ relationship will be affected. he made me believe that this will just be like the previous hurdles that we've overcome and after overcoming each hurdle, our love becomes stronger. thanks for encouraging me baby. without your encouragement, i will not have the courage to face my new poly life.
i promise, i will be your brave girl. :D

alrights
bye~

rained @ 10:37 PM